Are you my Mr. E?

If only there was someone like him, who had no attachments, no commitments. I think he’s someone whose company I can enjoy for the rest of my life.

Maybe this is my misfortune, for living my life and treating the people the way I do. What a shame. I could love someone like him.

I want to ask him about his wife. I want to confirm whether he really is married. Part of me is banking on how these people here, even though they only boyfriend-girlfriends, they tell the world they are married and they wear bands on their fingers.

He certainly doesn’t act like a married person, he doesn’t have kids. Or am I just fooling myself?

My heart is heavy every time I think of him.

I think I have fallen. Hard.

I came home for the holidays and the first guy I come in contact with again is mr. lbdt,  surprise surprise. He broke up with his girlfriend already and now he doesn’t seem as interesting as he was before. I really think I need to see a shrink.

Ever since I got back, he’s been SMS-ing and trying to hint to meet up, but I’ve always had an excuse. I’m leaving in a few days and I think I won’t be seeing him anymore. It’s a new year anyway, I have an excuse.