Man in the Machine..
I have never experienced feeling loved as much as I love, and today, that’s exactly how i feel. I know my previous posts haven’t been the happiest but i would argue that insecurity is only natural, especially with a man like mr. machine. I guess it comes with his age, but he knows how to treat me. We’ve talked, and it’s strange that I realized I was just being paranoid. I guess the idea of a perfect man just seemed impossible to me. Naturally, I was suspicious of everything. How can a player like this be as absolutely committed as he seems. For the first time, I was wrong about my suspicions and gut feelings. All these years, I’ve been with liars and cheaters and like i said, it began to seem like the norm. Then he came along. I had become fairly used to the way men operate and i always took the negative view of the way things were progressing. I never would have expected that things would turn out like this. Out of the three men I was seeing at that time, he was the least that i thought i’d have the possibility of getting serious with. Okay, we’ve been seeing each other almost everyday for the past 4 months. Maybe it’s too soon to tell. But I feel like I know him a great deal alread, and I know that he’s definitely someone i can get along with for the long haul. Maybe he SI too good to be true, but I want to bask in the feeling because it feels so damn good. This is the first time I’ve ever felt as loved as much as I love, not that i would love any less if that were not the case. Who knows how long this will last but right now, I just want to enjoy the moment and enjoy the feeling. If ever he does break my heart, I will still be grateful for him for giving me this chance to experience happiness as much and as whole as this.
