Are you my Mr. E?

Yes, nobody is perfect. Mr. Machine lied to me. He had his reasons to, but unfortunately, i think too much for my own good and ended up finding out. Yes, maybe i would have been hurt had the truth been told me instead. But  what hurt me more was the fact that he lied. And when I begged, for one thing, for him to just never lie to me again, he couldn’t. I wanted to tell him “then lie to me now and tell me you can” and everyone would have been happy. All I want is consistency. There was a time he said, “I can’t lie, I’m a really bad liar”. And now this.

I have issues with the unknown, and i guess it’s in my nature to try to figure things out and piece them together. It hurts when I don’t know, so I do what I can to fix it. Sometimes, I wish I just didn’t think too much about things. Sometimes, I just wish I didn’t ask so many questions in my head.

Nobody is perfect, I guess that is true. We can only decide to accept, all or nothing. I sove Mr. Machine, but I don’t know how to handle it. How do you deal with this? There  must be something wrong with me, expecting that people are capable of doing so. But it’s actually happened to 2 guys already. They said they can’t promise not to lie, which is a very honest statement. Thing is, I have a very sensitive spot for honesty, especially in a relationship.

I wish I could just remove the pain.

why does this happen to me.