Are you my Mr. E?

i can still remember the way he spoke to me.. the way he talked to me.. and what he said: two years he’s been waiting to do this, since the first time we met.. could it have been just the alcohol? there really isn’t any reason for him to assert such a claim, so why would he say something like that? maybe he assumed that i had liked him since then and that he was trying to take advantage of that? then again, he knew he couldn’t get any more than he was already.

was i really that obvious? did i just get played?

dammit. when will i learn..

Yes, him too. Actually, i should re-title this to “YAMM: Yet Another Married Man”

Let me tell you a bit about mr. alter ego. He’s not too good looking, at least not as good looking as the most gorgeous man i know. BUT he’s british. And God knows i love the brits. I love the accent and i love their sense of humor. I find it much more intellectual than any other kinds of humor. More tainted with a shade of green but nevertheless intellectual.

Mr. Alter Ego has a great sense of humor, and he’s not bad looking either. He talks funny (because of his accent). We’ve been friends for quite some time now though I never get to talk with him except for over IM.

To be honest, I’ve forced myself to forget about him because one: yes, he’s married. and two: he kind of insulted me the last time we spoke.  (hence the rage on that last post about him :p)

He came down to our team’s area yesterday and for some reason, i had that high school chill run up my spine when i saw him. And there are actually times of the day when i check his status on IM, and when he’s marked as away, i wonder which part of the building he’s in. I guess that was quite the pleasant surprise to see him at our area that day. DAMMIT! Why do i feel this way about a married man? i have no idea. What’s with me and this taken people thing :S

Because i was still offended by what he said to me the last time we spoke.. okay let me put you in context.

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I’m new with the company and i need guidance. One time i had asked him out for a drink (by drink i had meant coffee)  This was over IM by the way. So he asks when, then before i could reply, he tells me he should ask what his wife would think of it first. I have to say, I was just plain, insulted. Did he actually think i was trying to hit on him?? (well actually i was but of course not seriously :p)

Ever since then, I didn’t want him to think too highly of himself giving him any attention at all. Yeah, I was out to prove that he was insignificant to me.  Once in a while he would ping me and talk nonesense, which of course i enjoy. Like i mentioned, i enjoyed talking with him. He’s quite an interesting guy.

back to the other day, okay he visited our area and was chit chatting to some of my colleagues. Like i mentioned, I tried not to give him any more attention than was necessary. I said hi and went back to my work.

damn i just realized he tested me. Like i mentioned he was chatting with one of my colleagues  and then all of a sudden, he blurts “you dropped your purse” and i turned to check. Was he checking if i was eavesdropping on them? argh, now that i think about it, there’s a high chance that he was. damn, duped again.

sigh. Why oh why do i get the highschool electric shocks when i see him. I wish he had a brother. he’s the kind of personn that i woud definitely be interested in.

sigh. Do i feel lonely? no idea.