Are you my Mr. E?

i don’t know why i’m so worked up that Mr. Friendzone asked to go out with me “just the two of us” this weekend. I told him I’d get back to him on it depending on the workload that my boss gives me. I’m so bad at turning down guys. Some guys just make it too awkward. They jump the gun! I guess there are two ways to approach a girl, as i was sharing with a friend of mine the other day. There’s the black and white approach, where you fix a date where you ask THE question as if it’s a proposal for marriage and “force” her to say yes or no. Then there’s the gradient approach, where you just go with the flow and see where things take you. I have to say, for me, gone are the “will you be my girlfriend” days. It’s either I enjoy your company or not. If you’re going to make me feel uncomfortable by having me make a decision about how I feel about you, sorry, it’s always going to be no, and don’t bet on the “persistence will get your girl” theory either. To me that’s known as, “how to make yourself annoying”. Get a clue, playing hard to get is no longer an in thing either. So, long story short, i hope he spares himself the embarassment and just leaves me alone.

So like I was saying, I’ve been frequently going out with Mr. Friendzone everyday since the weekend that passed, and well, I needed a break. Yikes. Now I know how Mr. Perfect must have felt, and that was 1 MONTH of going out with me. Geez, is an apology in order?

So what did I do to think of myself as evil? Well, I exiled my mobile somewhere where she can’t be found, thereby ignoring any calls or SMSes of invitations to default dinner plans.

Thing is, I forgot to put it on silent mode. *Ring ring… ring ring… ring ring…* Well you get the picture. When the ringing finally stopped, I got my phone and read 1 new message that obviously came from him, as expected. And it was a “meet you at ****, *** o’clock.” type of a message. Uh, whatever happened to, “hey do you have dinner plans?”. It was more of a “I know you have no other friends so let’s eat at ****” kind of an invitation, which is, well, insulting.

Now I’m wondering whether I’d be this pissed if I hadn’t read that forbidden message. I dunno, I can’t recall any of my friends talking to me like that back home *sigh*.

On a different page, Mr. LDBT IM’d me this afternoon. I must admit I miss him. And because whatever fantasies I have for him have no hope of getting fulfilled because of the vast body of water that’s between us, I let down my guard more in our conversation. Goes without saying, the conversation got a bit steamy. I CAN’T HELP IT! He’s just too tempting for me, I’m SO glad he’s in a different country. And he kept teasing, and I kept teasing. Dammit. He’s probably the hardest temptation I have yet to overcome (no pun intended). I just hope I don’t get into a situation where I have to choose, at least not soon. I am evil.

In this new environment, Mr. friendzone is about the closest thing I have to an old friend, so I’ve been spending quite a considerable amount of time with him lately. Maybe I have yet to find my new set of friends, but until that happens, I have only mr. friendzone to go out and have dinner with. So, as much as i like him as a person, we’re definitely better off as friends. I’ve been through a number of guys and i can tell when he’s trying to make a move on me. Mr. friendzone didn’t make it that difficult to guess either. I don’t want to delve into this much mainly because this is a one way thing right now. I say right now, because i USED TO have a crush on this guy, waaaaaay way back. So. That’s it for now. :p