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mr. never was…
no he’s not someone new… He’s actually someone from the past. Today I was so bored that I decided to read through some of my mail from an old retired mailbox. I came across a string of email from this guy from waaay back. It was a funny and pretty long story.
The time I met him, I was infatuated over his best friend, which is why I didn’t pay much mind to him, despite his efforts, which now leaves me wondering what if. Now I miss how he was so sweet to me, and how he expressed his feelings to me for quite a while before finally giving up. He had to move out of the country for work and I haven’t seen him for the longest time. It came to a point, a year after he left when I had him pose as my ex so i could get out of this illegal relationship with a guy who already had a girlfriend. yeah i know, sounds like a familiar story, but this one only had ONE other girlfriend, he’s not the same guy. Anyway, when I put him up to that, i think he was well over me already but it amused him that we never WERE and now he was an EX. I don’t remember exactly why i picked HIM but I guess part of it was because I missed him. I missed how special and loved he made me feel. I still do. I don’t know if I really did mean anything to him. And right now, and this is not the first time i felt it, I’m really wondering what if. But i know it’s never going to happen. He’s now married and happy.
But reading through all the email he sent, I couldn’t believe how insensitive I was to how much a person could feel towards another. I think there hasn’t been any other guy who expressed so much of his feelings for me. He was one great catch that I should kick myself for not keeping.
Which made me think further, maybe my Mr. E had coming knocking on my back door, but i was too busy with other things, that i didn’t notice. *sigh* I’m really on depro mode right now.
